A time for change.

Its times like now when you really think about who you are in life. I look at my life and the decisions I made that led me to this point. What have I done that has led me to this point in my life? I've been given a good opportunity for change and to start a new direction for my life. Dave and I are going strong and this new house feels like home. Its amazing. I want to start this new year off on the right foot. Get my finances in order, be smarter and take more care. Organize my life so that I know where my priorities lie and in what order. I want to be more active and healthy. I want to be happy. I'm tired of wishing to have a life that others have. I want to be happy with my own. Part of that will be accepting parts of myself, and understanding them a bit better. Guess its time I took a look at what I am and where I am and where and who I wanna be. Then figure out how I wanna get there. I'll get there eventually.

Endings and Beginnings

Today starts the countdown to the end of the year. This is a good time for reflection. I've decided that I don't watch enough of the good movies. I don't know why I don't. Many of them are really funny. I think that is one thing I will do these next two weeks. Compile a list of movies that I have not seen that I want to. Then start off the beginning of the year with a goal to watch them all. Maybe even give a small review of them on here... Maybe use that time to spend with my family and Dave. It would be a good way to spend some quality time together.

 

I'm already imagining living in our new home. To recap everyone, after all that hard work we put into the house, the landlord turned into a scumbag and just caused a mess. So while we are sorting that out we have found a new place. Its super cute. I think I've already said that... but it is. The hard part is actually moving. That is the part that sucks. Thankfully we aren't going very far. Still annoying though. Esp when I have a short turn around today. That's ok though. All good things come to those who wait. I'm excited. It'll be worth it to be out of the mess and not have to deal with the stress and know we don't have to worry all the time.

 

I just want a fresh beginning. New start. Clean air to breath and not worry so much. This new year will be able to give us that. I'm looking forward to it.

 

 

Imagination... Where have you gone?

 

Imagination and free thinking. Carefree play pretend. They seem to leave us as we get older. What a shame. I look at children and remember a time when I loved playing make believe and pretend. Why can't I now? Why do we have to hide that exciting part of us? I feel so embarrassed sometimes when I would just love to fall into my imagination and let it take flight. Give in to my fantasies and release the rest of the world. Only for a little while... what bliss, what joy. Why can't I have that? Create my own world to relive any time that I want.

 

I think its time that I opened myself up and see how rusty my imagination is.