Health.... do we take it for granted?

I love food. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. I'm seriously craving a Prime Rib and peppercorn sub from Quizno's. I found out today though that they are all closing out. :( Sad day. I really enjoy that shop. Cafe rio is also a favorite. I love cow. Steaks are amazing. I eat a lot of red meat though, and I know I shouldn't so I try and eat a lot of chicken too.

Seems lately that I am surrounded by illness. Friend 1 had a huge chunk of her leg removed along with a lymph node because of cancer and is still fighting it. Friend 2 has a tumor on her kidney's and its causing her body to create way to much adrenaline. Friend 3 has cervical cancer that might be spreading to her kidneys. Friend 4's son is having non-stop seizures and they don't think the boy will make it much longer.

I see my friends.... I look at my family and my genes. I'm in for a rough ride. Makes me want to cry. Depressing.

Then I have to kind of be mad at myself. What am I doing to help it? I have all the tools I need at the ready and I don't use any of them. What's my excuse? I'm lazy. I have no follow through. Stupid. No excuse.

I've bought a box of water bottles. It was $3. I spend that on a MT Dew on almost a daily basis. Its lasted me over a week. Talk about a money saver. Ya I have to pee every 2 hours but I'm hydrated. That will help with loosing weight. Not having to worry about all that sugar. Cleanse the system.

I really really want to get a juicer. Be able to make your own smoothies. I want that pretty bad.

I was given advice that I thought was good. It says that if you want to be something, to tell yourself that everytime you describe yourself. I want to be in shape with some amazing abs. I really want to have that though. Be able to wear my bikini and be proud. I want to be some other things too, but for the purpose of this post that's the main thing. I want my abs back. To be strong. I like watching the movie Stick it. About the gymnastics... wow. I want that muscle definition. Its a great motivator.

I need to prioritize. I have so much that I want to do and the list just gets longer which means that nothing gets done. I need to pick one or two things to really focus on and see where they take me. Never know what kind of doors will open.