I realized that all my worrying, and trying to be in control wasn't helping. I'm very much a person that likes to be in control. I'm very gung ho and want to keep things moving, taking it to the max, but my issue was that I was trying to do that with a situation that I have absolutely no control over. Very stressful especially since nothing was changing! So I decided to take a small step back and let Dave take control. By doing what I was doing I was stressing not only myself out, but Dave as well which only made matters worse.
Its very weird to not be in control, makes me nervous, but I realized that is why I have Dave! I'm supposed to let him take control so that he can take care of me. All he asks of me is to be happy. That way when he comes home stressed he can cuddle and relax with happy me and that makes him happy.
So that is what I am trying to do. I joined Shelfari.com, which got me motivated to read more. I went and bought some very helpful books, and a small journal to write out the helpful points and exercises for me.
This is the journal. Celtic on it. Very Pretty
I also went and got my hair done and got half of my tattoo shaded in. It's kind of funny, everyone keeps commenting on the color but they don't realize that the red is really just blood. I just irritated it to the max. The funny thing about getting the shading done was that part of it tickled like none other! Never had it tickle before.
Red Hair
One big point that I like is trying to start my day off peacefully. So I've slowly started these 10 min workouts every day before I shower. I figure I spend 10 min watching TV why not put it to use! So I'm going to continue doing that. I also bought me the toothpaste I want, and got Dave the kind he likes. I got some different things to get my face cleared up and my whole focus is to make me feel and look better.
Plus by getting up a little earlier I can go outside and play with Star and Butch. Even if its just picking up the yard, its very healthy to get at least 5 min of regualar sun. So I figure that's oh an extra 20 min early? Not to shabby all things considering.
