4 years going on 5

January 19th Dave and I celebrated our 4th anniversary. K I know that its technically not an actual anniversary, but we've been together that long so (raspberry noise). I felt bad that this year I wasn't in a position to get him anything. I also worked that day, so we couldn't even do dinner.

Dave had hinted that he was trying to get me something and I really didn't think much of it, because we really didn't have any money to do anything with. As he was taking me to work he pulled out a Morgan Jewlers bag and surprised me with this!!!

Its beautiful and perfect and I have permagrin. I am so happy its not even funny.

Dave's Birthday

This year he opted not to have a birthday party. Its been our goal that we try and go camping as often as we can.... and we've definately tried to do that. So this year he wanted to go camping. We left Friday morning to head up to Strawberry. Smooth until we actually got up there. Had issues finding a campsite, then ripped up the motorhome a bit, finally got it all settled in and had friends come up to enjoy it with us. The ride home was just as bad though. The motor home kept breaking down. So after a lot of cussing and yelling etc. We found out that the thing has a second fuel filter on it that had been rusted and corroded and ate the fuel pump. Luckily the fuel pump is only $20. So replacing BOTH filters and the fuel pump to hopefully get it to the Cheveron to clean out the tanks then to the garage it goes until we figure out what we are going to do with it.

Casey guy is always there!

Dave's fishing vest

The First fish of the trip

His new apron. LOVED IT

Cooper had his first Smore... LOVED IT

Several more fish he caught.

Adam and Bill came up to fish.

First Camping trip of 2010

We took a weekend and planned to spend memorial weekend camping with Casey, but as the guys forgot half the food we only stayed one night. It was a little stressful at first with Star throwing up all over my coat and then jumping out of the car and Dave had to chase her down, but once we got her on a lease and Casey and Kim came back, it ended up being really fun.

Dave and Casey

Casey guy

Butch and Star playin

Butch just sat there with this face lol

Star cuddling

Time for Heather

So all my worrying finally got to everyone, especially me. Nervous breakdown here I come... Soooooo my boss and Dave decided to intervene.

I realized that all my worrying, and trying to be in control wasn't helping. I'm very much a person that likes to be in control. I'm very gung ho and want to keep things moving, taking it to the max, but my issue was that I was trying to do that with a situation that I have absolutely no control over. Very stressful especially since nothing was changing! So I decided to take a small step back and let Dave take control. By doing what I was doing I was stressing not only myself out, but Dave as well which only made matters worse.

Its very weird to not be in control, makes me nervous, but I realized that is why I have Dave! I'm supposed to let him take control so that he can take care of me. All he asks of me is to be happy. That way when he comes home stressed he can cuddle and relax with happy me and that makes him happy.

So that is what I am trying to do. I joined Shelfari.com, which got me motivated to read more. I went and bought some very helpful books, and a small journal to write out the helpful points and exercises for me.

This is the journal. Celtic on it. Very Pretty

I also went and got my hair done and got half of my tattoo shaded in. It's kind of funny, everyone keeps commenting on the color but they don't realize that the red is really just blood. I just irritated it to the max. The funny thing about getting the shading done was that part of it tickled like none other! Never had it tickle before.

Red Hair

One big point that I like is trying to start my day off peacefully. So I've slowly started these 10 min workouts every day before I shower. I figure I spend 10 min watching TV why not put it to use! So I'm going to continue doing that. I also bought me the toothpaste I want, and got Dave the kind he likes. I got some different things to get my face cleared up and my whole focus is to make me feel and look better.

Plus by getting up a little earlier I can go outside and play with Star and Butch. Even if its just picking up the yard, its very healthy to get at least 5 min of regualar sun. So I figure that's oh an extra 20 min early? Not to shabby all things considering.

The first day of the rest of my life.

I am having the best day. I don't know why but I woke up just in a good mood. It could due to the fact I slept all day yesterday and actually got good sleep. Whatever the reason I just feel good, motivated, and in a loving mood.

Keyword:TIME MANAGEMENT. I need to learn and practice it. I spent the weekend working, as usual, except Saturday. Saturday I spent sleeping and with Dave. We had food and brownies and watched a movie and then today I got some seriously needed cuddle time. It seriously was needed badly and I loved it. Granted it wasn't very long but it was perfect. Made for an excellent start for the day. Yes, I didn't get to see any of my girls, but I needed the time with Dave and I know they understand.

So I decided that I need to figure out my calendar a bit better. Its why I bought one after all. So my plan for the time management is for my girls that I need to see (you know who you are) I can plan girls nights with. However, I will need to do them on weekends that we don't have the kids, or whatever we're planning will need to be after they go to bed. Or for my girls that I can do lunches with we can plan them in the mornings and I'll jsut wake up earlier. Then I'll also plan them around my time with Dave. We're going to take every minute we can get. So that may mean I'm waking up earlier or staying up a bit longer. 

As for me. I started today getting the tattoo that I have been waiting for months to get, and let me tell you it was all worth it. Sarah knew exactly what I was needing. Its a Goddess symbol where the moons on the side have been interwined into a Celtic knot. 

The woman herself, represents the Goddess, a strong, powerful woman. The Spiral inside of her means healing.

The moons, if you look closely are different. They represent the different sides of a situation.

Then on both sides, framing the rose they end in a heart. Meaning that no matter what way you choose the end should end in love, or good karma.

This is to always remind me that I need to keep positive and do what I think is right. No matter who or what the circumstance. We're going to make it look like stone. This is just the outline. Its going to look amazing when its done. I couldn't be happier with it. Sarah got it right on the money.

I always want to have good karma in my life. Life is to short to waste it on drama and negative things. I'd rather focus on life with Dave and the kids making every moment count. They are my life and the people I've been close with are so amazing and I am so blessed to have them around me.

I do want to improve on myself though. I'm getting my hair done really pretty and I need to continue to work out. I need to start studing my German. Its really important to me to learn it. It my family language and I want to teach my kids how to speak it. I need to start a schedule to keep it going. Dedicate time and effort to it.

I am looking forward to this next year though. As long as Dave and I continue to budget as we have been I should hopefully be able to return to school and get a law degree. Once I have that I am hoping to get on here at England so that I don't have to change jobs just different departments.

Life is just looking good to me today and I am so looking forward to the future.