Words for thought.

As I was looking through facebook today I saw a status that said "Never make someone a priority when they only make you an option." Its interesting how so many things lately are pointing to the decision I need to make.

I've been struggling with a friend lately. We used to be as close as sisters and then something happened, something changed. I'm not sure what started it. Maybe it was when I decided to stop drinking.... I don't know. I do know that a changed haappened, and at first there was tension in the home and then we got kicked out and from that point the communication just stopped. Ended up there was issues at home she needed to take care of so I was hoping that wouls be it but then she just stopped talking to me. I tried inviting her out for girls nights, and every time there was an excuse as to why she couldn't go. I invite her to my birthday party and she tried to say I had never invited her, and after I reminded her of the numerous times we had talked about it, she still didn't show. So I tried yet again to invite her to go out and again I get an excuse as to why she can't go. 

I hear rumors about her telling people that its me that doesn't talk to her not the other way around and I've explained that the last time we talked she got in trouble so I am not going to invade her privacy and ask her things that she may not want to talk to about or even put her in that position. If she needs to talk I'll listen, but I am not going to pry about it when its none of my business anyways. It just seems like all my efforts are pointless. 

Then I have a friends that make special efforts to talk to me, and come see me. I had friends drive all the way to my house for even a small amount of time so that they could wish me a happy birthday. Those are the friends that I consider true friends. They made seeing me a priority and I will treat them with the same respect. And there are a few I feel I need to make priorities. 

I really like this saying and I am taking it to heart. The Goddess and the universe gives answers in many ways. I think this is one I need to pay special attention to.    

The first day of the rest of my life.

I am having the best day. I don't know why but I woke up just in a good mood. It could due to the fact I slept all day yesterday and actually got good sleep. Whatever the reason I just feel good, motivated, and in a loving mood.

Keyword:TIME MANAGEMENT. I need to learn and practice it. I spent the weekend working, as usual, except Saturday. Saturday I spent sleeping and with Dave. We had food and brownies and watched a movie and then today I got some seriously needed cuddle time. It seriously was needed badly and I loved it. Granted it wasn't very long but it was perfect. Made for an excellent start for the day. Yes, I didn't get to see any of my girls, but I needed the time with Dave and I know they understand.

So I decided that I need to figure out my calendar a bit better. Its why I bought one after all. So my plan for the time management is for my girls that I need to see (you know who you are) I can plan girls nights with. However, I will need to do them on weekends that we don't have the kids, or whatever we're planning will need to be after they go to bed. Or for my girls that I can do lunches with we can plan them in the mornings and I'll jsut wake up earlier. Then I'll also plan them around my time with Dave. We're going to take every minute we can get. So that may mean I'm waking up earlier or staying up a bit longer. 

As for me. I started today getting the tattoo that I have been waiting for months to get, and let me tell you it was all worth it. Sarah knew exactly what I was needing. Its a Goddess symbol where the moons on the side have been interwined into a Celtic knot. 

The woman herself, represents the Goddess, a strong, powerful woman. The Spiral inside of her means healing.

The moons, if you look closely are different. They represent the different sides of a situation.

Then on both sides, framing the rose they end in a heart. Meaning that no matter what way you choose the end should end in love, or good karma.

This is to always remind me that I need to keep positive and do what I think is right. No matter who or what the circumstance. We're going to make it look like stone. This is just the outline. Its going to look amazing when its done. I couldn't be happier with it. Sarah got it right on the money.

I always want to have good karma in my life. Life is to short to waste it on drama and negative things. I'd rather focus on life with Dave and the kids making every moment count. They are my life and the people I've been close with are so amazing and I am so blessed to have them around me.

I do want to improve on myself though. I'm getting my hair done really pretty and I need to continue to work out. I need to start studing my German. Its really important to me to learn it. It my family language and I want to teach my kids how to speak it. I need to start a schedule to keep it going. Dedicate time and effort to it.

I am looking forward to this next year though. As long as Dave and I continue to budget as we have been I should hopefully be able to return to school and get a law degree. Once I have that I am hoping to get on here at England so that I don't have to change jobs just different departments.

Life is just looking good to me today and I am so looking forward to the future.

Learning German!

Its interesting how the universe answers your pleas. I've been so stressed and I was able to work some OT and now will have enough money to fix the car and register the truck. I was also able to get a ride for the next 3 days so that will help too. I truly am blessed and I just need to remember to keep putting out good Karma and things will be OK.

I've always wanted to learn German. I wasn't given that opportunity in high school and Jr high. I want to pay my school loans off so I can go back but until then I just have my own methods. Luckily I have some family members that speak it and can help. So as I learn they will be brushing up and hopefully I will know enough that when I have my own kids I can teach them.

I'm so excited! Tiffany is going to take some sexy Halloween pictures with me. I'm just dressing up with things I already have so I'm going to be working out extra hard the next couple weeks and Hopefully loose a few more inches so that I look extra good. I'm going to buy Bynx a carrier so he can come too. I might be able to take Gabby. Guess we'll see. It's going to be way fun though!