Monica's Salt Lake City Cemetery Shoot.

I love cemetery's. LOVE them. Monica set up an awesome ghoul shoot there and I had SOOOO much fun. I got to sacrifice her :) Before that though I stole Shannon and made her model for me.

This last one taken by Paul Dennison. He's just awesome. We love Pirate Paul.

NUCG March

Tiffany set up the March meet up of the Northern Utah Creative Group out at Saltaire. I picked up Jakki and Nic and we headed out. There was an amazing turn out.

I got to meet some amazing photographers, and ended up with some awesome shots.

I even got to take a few of Monica that were amazing. I was excited.

Personal Fav :)

I didn't get through the night without an injury though. I picked up Nic and fell off a freezer door and I messed up my ankle pretty bad. It hurt really bad but not so that I couldn't walk on it. It swelled pretty good but no discoloration. In the clear! HA! No way. Monday it was swollen, Tuesday it was kinda swollen, Wednesday the brusing started. It looks like I brusied the tendon. So after trying to "tough it out" for a week, Dave dug me out Dad's crutches and I've been on them for a week. If its looking better then I know I'm on the mend. If not then to the Doctor I go. Woo hoo. Ugh.

Sometimes the best route to take is not saying anything, even when its the right thing to do.

Hurricane of emotions. Hurricane.

I can't say that I'm stuck in the situation, at least not all of them. One I can say I am involved in... but I don't want to escalate it since its not that bad. Yet. I'm waiting to see what will happen with that one and act at the appropriate time.

Now the other 2, I'm just an outsider looking in. Which sometimes makes it worse. People close to my heart are involved and I cannot do anything. The helpless feeling sucks most of all. This has to be what a parent feels like. Having to keep your trap shut and letting them make their own decisions. They are grown people. Nothing I can say or do will help the situation, but it just might make it worse. So best to keep quite.

Sucks. Sometimes I wish my heart had an off button.

G.W.C. Non-pervish

There has been a lot of talk lately about "guys with camera's". Guys with point and shoots claiming to be professionals, when all they have is photo shop. We've been telling the Models to be safe and cautious with who they work with. Making sure to check references, taking an escourt, etc. So I think I would be classified as a "Girl with Camera" only I'm not claiming to be professional and I'm doing this for practice, hense the "non-pervish". I think I've got some good ones thus far.

Bachelorette Party :)

Jenny's taking the plunge April 2nd. The wedding got moved up so that her brother can walk her down the isle. So that meant last min bachelorette party. We went to Green Street and the security there was so awesome they helped get her a lap dance. :) Much fun.

A much needed weekend.

What a weekend. I loved every minute of it... almost. At least until the part that I got sick. Friday I went to see Little Red Riding Hood with my sisters. LOVED IT!!!! I absolutely loved it.

Saturday I got to spend some time with my cousin (by marriage) Ashlee. She's married to my cousin Stephen. It was really nice to spend the time with her and get to know her more. I really enjoyed it.

After I got home I got to take a nap. :) Love naps. Then I went and got to spend some much needed quality time with my Trish!!!! She came into town with her hubby to get all their stuff so that their house isn't just an empty hole. So I got to steal her Saturday. We went down to Allure with Jenny, Heidi (a blast from my past from my days at Shopko), Ariel and Amelia. Danced the night away. My legs KILLED. After dropping everyone off neither of us wanted to go home so we wasted time by slowly going home. I'm so glad I got to see her I miss her so so so much.

Sunday night was the Bomber meeting, finally getting the contracts signed and letting everyone know what we're doing to move forward. We've got things a little bit more orgainized which is really nice. Plus we got to order our Mardi Gras outfits from Ariana. I got a pretty dress as well! :) Yes I will own a dress by this weekend. I know right? Hell is freezing over. I want to be a successful business woman though so that means that I need to start dressing like one. Taking better care of myself.

That was when I got sick. :( I was supposed to go and celebrate my Cera Foo's birthday and I got sick. I was pissed. So to make it up to her. Dinner/lunch on me :) go spend some quality time with her. She's going to be moving soon and I'm going to miss her so much!!! Sucks. So I need to take advantage of seeing her while I can.

Health.... do we take it for granted?

I love food. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. I'm seriously craving a Prime Rib and peppercorn sub from Quizno's. I found out today though that they are all closing out. :( Sad day. I really enjoy that shop. Cafe rio is also a favorite. I love cow. Steaks are amazing. I eat a lot of red meat though, and I know I shouldn't so I try and eat a lot of chicken too.

Seems lately that I am surrounded by illness. Friend 1 had a huge chunk of her leg removed along with a lymph node because of cancer and is still fighting it. Friend 2 has a tumor on her kidney's and its causing her body to create way to much adrenaline. Friend 3 has cervical cancer that might be spreading to her kidneys. Friend 4's son is having non-stop seizures and they don't think the boy will make it much longer.

I see my friends.... I look at my family and my genes. I'm in for a rough ride. Makes me want to cry. Depressing.

Then I have to kind of be mad at myself. What am I doing to help it? I have all the tools I need at the ready and I don't use any of them. What's my excuse? I'm lazy. I have no follow through. Stupid. No excuse.

I've bought a box of water bottles. It was $3. I spend that on a MT Dew on almost a daily basis. Its lasted me over a week. Talk about a money saver. Ya I have to pee every 2 hours but I'm hydrated. That will help with loosing weight. Not having to worry about all that sugar. Cleanse the system.

I really really want to get a juicer. Be able to make your own smoothies. I want that pretty bad.

I was given advice that I thought was good. It says that if you want to be something, to tell yourself that everytime you describe yourself. I want to be in shape with some amazing abs. I really want to have that though. Be able to wear my bikini and be proud. I want to be some other things too, but for the purpose of this post that's the main thing. I want my abs back. To be strong. I like watching the movie Stick it. About the gymnastics... wow. I want that muscle definition. Its a great motivator.

I need to prioritize. I have so much that I want to do and the list just gets longer which means that nothing gets done. I need to pick one or two things to really focus on and see where they take me. Never know what kind of doors will open.