Trying to take my own advice

I'm usually such a happy person and I'm always telling my friends to just keep their chin up, that everything will be ok. Now I know how they feel. I've been trying to keep my chin up, but lately just feel like freaking out.

Of course its due to financial struggles. I know that if I can just keep my focus and stick to the course I will get everything taken care of. I know that I just need to keep my cool, not freak out and remember that it could always be worse. It's all about keeping my head on straight. Makeing the right decisions and keep on top of things.

I cannot wait until the day when I don't have all these bills and I don't have to constatnly worry. I do know how far I have come and remember how I felt back then when I had more on my shoulders and I just have to remember that I have come this far, I can go further. Only this time I have Dave with me. Thank the stars for him. I don't know what I would do without him.

We had the kids over this weekend. Thankfully they are feeling better. Gabby discovered my vampire books so she spent time looking at them. I'm looking forward to getting her a bookshelf she can have of her own. I figure it'll be a christmas present when she gets 10 or 11, or when they move in here. There are lots of things I'm looking forward to doing when they finally move in with us. Things they can learn, actually making big meals for them to eat during the week, stuff I want to teach them etc. I know though that I should appreciate the time they spend with their mom. I know that if we got them right now that would not be a good thing financially right now. However the day will come and we will make it work. Those kids are worth it completely.

I guess my biggest struggle and worry is what they are being told when they aren't here. Its hard being a stepmom when you have almost no control on that kinda stuff. I encorage them to have a good relationship with their mom, but in doing that anything they are told by her they imediately beleive regardless of what it is. Kinda a double edged sword on that one.

On a more happier note, Star is getting HUGE! She is definatley one happy healthy puppy. I took her in for her second set of shots and she was so well behaved I was impressed. She weighs 12 lbs at 3 months and is looking really healthy. She is getting tall too. Twice as tall and she's getting better at telling us when she needs to go outside. Dave cleaned the carpets on Saturday and doesn't seem to have made a difference to her. I think the house looks great and the carpets needed it, but she still has had accidents. Guess she's a stubborn one. That and she's been faking it just to get outside. I wait until she has done it for sure before I bring her in. I know the snow has been helping to make sure she's going. I don't buy into her little acting and I wait until she has gone outside before I bring her in. The one thing we've been trying to do is during the day once she goes potty we stay outside and play and at night once she's gone we come back inside. Its experimental so we'll see how that goes. For now its mostly just keeping an eye on her making sure she goes outside instead of inside.

The kids are getting used to her but she's growing faster than they are! lol They have been asking questions about why I say certain things. Like I say "No biting" or "No Barking" or "down". They just say "no". So we had a talk about why its important to say what she is doing so she knows not to do it again. Just like when she piddles in the house she gets put in the kennel. She doesn't like the kennel so she associates the bad action with something she doesn't like.

I've been reading more into husky's and boxer's. She is stubborn with lots of energy, and teething. Sigh... I'm trying to instill in her some good behaviors and the best time is to start now! She really is a sweetheart though. Slowly working her way into everyone's hearts, even Bynx.

Thanksgiving Weekend. HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!!

If this weekend could get any hecticer I think I'll die.

Started of course with getting home Thanksgiving morning from work around 0200. I had to go to Smith's and buy a chocolate pie for dinner. Then I passed out had to get back up at noon to get to my grandma's by about 1330. Dave was going to come but he woke up sicker than a dog poor guy. He's been watching sick kids all week and it finally caught up with him. So he got to stay home and pass out.

I get to Grandma's and Tazia had brought AJ! Was way awesome to see him. We had dinner played the white elephant game and then a bit of Apples to Apples. It was nice to spend time with the family. Went home and spent the evening with Dave, he's slowly starting to feel better. Took a short nap and had to be to work by 0200.

After getting off work I boogied home to shower and get ready to take Ariel out. She and Jason are getting married for the third time! The plan was Friday night go to the bars for a Bachelor/bachelorette party, But Jason didn't fly in intime to get to the court to get a marriage license. So the plan changed to a Breakfast with some select friends and then I drove her arround running errands. Got her home in time for Jenny to do her hair and makeup so that she could leave at 1500 to get Jason from the airport and they booked it down to Vegas.

From what I heard the ceremony was beautiful, tons of pictures were taken and that it went perfectly. FINALLY! So now they are booking it back home for the reception at Olive Garden at 1900. They didn't get to Olive Garden until about 2000. Fashionably late I guess.

So after dropping Ariel off I went home and passed out for a bit. Then Dave took me to the mall to get a very nice new green hoodie and some new bra's (desperately in need of some that fit) and being black friday we actually got some killer deals. spent about $100 for $170 dollars worth of stuff, and we got Cooper his Christmas present.

So after work I hurried home to get ready and Dave and I got to Olive Garden 40 min early, so we went to Big 5 to walk around and we found these $60 knives on clearance for $10 each. They aren't going to be making them anymore so Dave and I got his and her Smith and Weston pocket knives. How cool is that?

So we finally get everyone there and Ariel and Jason show up. Victoria was there and Jason's family and a few of Ariels as well. I'm honestly surprised that the turn out was so bad. There were a few of her friends that Ariel had sworn would be there that didn't make an appearance. BJ came to breakfast, so did Nikki, I think they didn't come due to the money issue. Jenny came to breakfast but not dinner she had to go talk with her ex. Why that couldn't wait I don't know. Amanda was supposed to be there and I think she didn't come because she knew I would be there. I was actually kind of looking forward to seeing her. Oh well. Still was nice I got way cute pictures and I got to be there and that is what counts.

So after dinner we booked it out to Amelia's for Mike's birthday. We went and saw Boondock Saints #2. Such a good movie. Way better than the first one.

All in all the weekend went smoothly and we got most of everything done that we wanted to get done. Thankfully even had Sunday to rest and get some ice cream.

Being Thankful

As it's Thanksgiving I decided a thankful addition was in order. Here is a list of thins I am grateful for.

• Karma
• My life
• David
• Bynx
• Butch
• Star
• My family
• My friends
• My friends that have excellent picture taking abilities
• A good job
• A warm home
• A working car
• Good phone service
• My health
• My laptop!
• My emotions
• The kids
• Wal-mart
• Smiths
• A warm coat
• Food to eat
• Doctors
• Health Insurance
• Good TV shows
• History Channel
• True TV
• Dog treats
• Emeralds
• Casper the Ghost
• Tattoo artists
• The color Pink
• Ability to breathe
• Animal Bath Wipes
• Deoderant
• Brownies
• Good humor
• Loyalty
• Love
• Craftsman that made my furniture
• Good Universitites

There is more of course but these are what I can think of right now... I have a lot to be grateful for and I know I am truely blessed. Happy Thanksgiving!

Babies! Babies! Babies!

Sunday I went with Brandy to the Peace Gardens and got to take some way cute pictures with Bynx. It was cold but he was a trooper! Took a bit to warm him up but he was a good boy.

Then Monday, Dave came home early and surprised me by taking me up to a friends house to look at puppies! I found my little girl. She's half husky half boxer and it adorable. She's the cuddliest little girl. I named her Star. Both Bynx and Butch took to her really well. I was proud of both of them.

Today is her 4th day as a member of the Biesinger family and so far so good! We've been trying to house train her. The first night it was taking her out every 2 hours. Star has never been in a house so she's trying to get used to it. I found food that she likes and boy is she a bottomless pit!

Day one was just chilling at home with Bynx, Butch, and Dad. She had a couple accidents, but Dad wasn't really watchin cause he was sleping. I brought home a cute little pink camo collar and a pink leash. Until we get her all her sets of shots I'm nervous to let her in the back yard since Cotton had parvo.

Day 2 I was up every 2 hours to keep potty training, we took lots of naps lol. I had to work all night so I was nervous about her going in the house since I know Dave sleeps so soundly.

Starting day 3, I got home and Dave had put her in the carrier I had bought For Bynx, so that she wouldn't piddle in the house. She fit but wasn't happy about it. I got her out and took her outside she did her thing. She would not let me put her down though. Finally got her calmed down and got to bed.

She got to meet Tazia and the kids too. Lots of love and attention. She's soaking it up and loving every minute of it.

Now as we start day 4 she's cuddling with me laying on the couch. I'm falling in love with her more everyday. Star is the best present I could've gotten. Dave is such a good man. I love him so much.

Star!

I got my Christmas present early this year and she is adorable! I can't thank Dave enough!

She is half boxer and half Husky. Definately a puppy. Dave has spent all afternoon chasing after her. I got home and she had piddled and pooped twice. I bought her a collar and leash so that we can't loose her.

Bynx is actually being very good with her. He hasn't hissed or smacked her. I'm very proud of him.

Butch doesn't seem to care either way. He'll get more outside time though. Star will need to be taken outside a lot. She lived outside so living in a house is a whole different adventure. She defnately seems more relaxed now. I'm really going to be focusing on potty training her now.

She has one blue eye and one green

Random Ramblings on the first weekend of Heavy Snow

Its been a crazy day. Watching the snow storm from a nice warm office. Luckily the roads were clear enough on my way home.

Work itself wasn't to bad. Had one customer just have all the issues and it turned into a huge problem, when it could've been an easy fix. That of course would've been WAAAAYYYY to easy. Instead I had to fight to get the right numbers to just call the people I needed to talk to so that I could get the correct information so that I could email the customer so that we could get the issue resolved. GAH!!!! So I didn't leave work til about an hour late.

At this point i'm tired but the kids are with us this weekend and neither one is feeling very well. As I still needed to get a birthday present for Brad I decided to go to Smiths. Thank goodness for grocery wars! Prices have never been cheaper and boy is my wallet grateful! So I get Brad's present and a ton of soups and crackers, figure if everyone is sick a dinner of soup is a good way to go.

Afterward I went to Dad's, both him and Mike are sick too. Dad has swineflu and Mike is trying to ween himself off some prescription drugs. Its hard but he's doing an amazing job. I'm really proud of him. I got them some soup too and got them situated.

I started home and I have to admit if I had to choose my favorite street it would have to be Main Street in Farmington. It is so beautiful and full of trees and just.... it makes me happy.

So I get home and both kids are sick. Gabby has Croup. I guess its a cough that happens when she gets to warm. It sounds like the same chest cough I had when I had broncitis. She gave it to Brad, so now he's coughing. On top of that they are both congested, and the drainage is going down their throats. So their voices are in and out and they don't want to eat. Brad han't been eating very much and his stomach is aching. He was waking up every 20 min through the night just screaming but he wouldn't eat anything and he was running a fever. Thank goodness for motron and children's tylonol. Dave went and got a slimfast to try and help get something in his tummy and that worked! Finally Brad decided he needed the bathroom and wow did he ever! Guess he hadn't gone in a while and that on top of not eating was making his tummy hurt. So after all that he took a long nap got up and ate dinner and was running around til he got tired again. Luckily Gabby was doing pretty good and was keeping down crackers. By the time Shannon came to get them they were tired but definately doing better.

Even with the sickness though we had a little mini party for Brad. I was planning one with Dave's parents and sister and Tazia and dad, but since everyone is sick that isn't really happening. So we made the Batman cake and

I had found a card and this way cool Batman Action figure. Its as big as a barbie but its has a cool thing on his arm that when you push the button it spins and lights up as the Bat Signal. Brad loved it! We also got him some army dudes and a spider man that is supposed to expand in water. Its slow going though and still in my bathroom sink. The box said it could take up to 92 hours! Weird stuff. The kids were going in and checking in on it every half hour timing it by when their cartoons start.

I got to go see my friend Brandy. Its been..... oh almost 4 years since I've seen her and wow she looks amazing! She's always been way beautiful but just wow she was looking good. She has the cutest family and I'm so glad she has come far and is where she is. Its crazy to see just how much we have changed in 3 years and where we are. We are truly blessed. I always get a hankering for dressing up when I see her. She's always been very fashionable and classy. Ya Classy is the best word to discribe her. I don't think she does it on purpose though it just is how she is.  

So now I'm sitting at home planning out my day for tomorrow... thinking I might start another blog and knowing that I need to start working out again and pay some bills tomorrow. Watching Dave sleeping on the couch and know just how much I love him and everything he does for me and helps me with. I'm so grateful to have him and know with 100 percent certainty that he is mine. With all of the struggles we have I truely am blessed and I can't be more grateful for what the universe has sent my way.

Willy Wonka Wedding

Rod, one of Dave's good friends, is getting married. Rod and Dave went to high school together, they joined the army together. Stationed at the same places, went on the same missions, they have literately been through hell and back together.
A while ago Rod met Deleece and she is so cute! Ever since she was 7 years old she has wanted to have a wedding themed from Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory. When she asked Rod about it he was all set to go!

I won't lie I was really impressed with amount of time and work put into this. Rod made most of the decorations, scultping, painting, makin, you name it. He really put some hard work into this.

Wonka Bars (chocolate covered spoons)

Cotton Candy trees

Candyland with Chocolate (frosting) river

Candy Forest with Tootie Dirt

Candy Factory

3 Course Gumballs

Goose that lays golden eggs

Oompa Loompas!

The Wedding Cake

I'm very impressed. The Standard Examiner was even there and the wedding was documented in the Sunday paper. Very exciting for all!