A wonderful weekend :)

My weekends always start on a Saturday. The kids were just so full of energy, I'm guessing because this is the first time in a while that they weren't sick. All they asked was to go outside, but due to the rain, Dave and I didn't want them out there only to get sick again... So once the rain stopped Dave suggested we go for a drive. Magical words lol. We drove up trapper's and around Causey for a bit. Wonderful country. I love how green Utah is.

So after that we came home and Dave found the rims we needed for the motorhome for $50. All 6 for $50. How awesome is that. They are usually $50 a piece. So while Dave went to get those I got ready to go to Megan's birthday party. She's such a good friend. I had a really good time dancing and getting all dressed up for a night.

Then today was just a nice and easy day. I've been trying to find a USB memory stick I haven't seen in a while. I thought I left it at work but I couldnt find it there... so I've been tearing the house apart and I can't find it here either. Really startig to annoy me. I have no idea where it is and it has valuable info on it. I thought maybe I vacuumed it up, which would suck. I'm debating on going through my vacuum to check.... But it could be in the last bag and that one is at the dump somewhere.... sigh guess i'll have to wait and see....

Birthday Weekend

I made a goal that this weekend would be one of goal setting and reflection. I can't decide if I want to get braces and fix my teeth or if I want to get back into school. I think I'll have to start with seeing if I'll even be able to get into school. I need to get up to Weber and see what my chances are and go from there. I'd love to get back into school, but I'm not sure what I need to do to get in there. 

My body is something that is very important to me. I'm going to start walking up and down stairs with weights on my feet to start helping get rid of my belly. I want to have my body back and that is something I have always said but have done very little. I do have a very hyper dog, what other excuse do I need? 

I did finally clean my car out. Spent some time with it making sure I got as much hair as I could and all the dirt. Threw away all the garbage and vacuumed it out. I then got as much dirt as I could off the hard surfaces with green apple fabuloso. It smells nice in there now and looks a million times better. I also got all the laundry done today. Clean clothes galore! We don't have enough hangers for them all. 

For Mother's Day we woke up with Brad sick. He threw up all over the floor and in the bathroom and got several bloody noses. I don't understand why they are always sick! I invested in lysol and we spray their toys and room and all the doors down both before and after they are here. We make them blow their noses and take medicine and wash their hands and they usually feel better. It just isn't that hard. So we cleaned him up and I went to Jen's house while Dave stayed home and cleaned the yard and house up. 

Grandma Rudy had come up from mesquite. Her husband has always been a little off. Its awkward when he's around. Great Grandma asked who I was (she's 90 so its ok) and I said I'm Heather, Les's Heather, and Bob (my grandma's husband) was all "well technically your Elise's heather" so I said no I'm Les's Heather for all intents of purpose. And he mumbled something. K I know I'm at odds with Les but Great Grandma doesn't need to know that. She's 90... If that is how she remembers me then hoopde do.... good hell. He's weird. But anywho, I got to spend some time with my cousins and Tazia and James and Curtis came so I got to see them and that is what I wanted. Brettney even came. I haven't seen her in forever. 

So after that I came home and we went to Smith's got dinner and the carpet cleaner. I need to just get one, $50 a pop I could've owned one by now. I'll have to check into that new Bissell. Or that little Green one. I liked those, or at least from what they show on TV. We moved all the furniture out of the living room and vacuumed the house then cleaned the living room and the kids room. So all the pee fromthe dogs, cat throw up, kid throw up, and who knows what all else finally got picked up and taken care of. So after the cleaning our house smells soooo much better. 

The wind is really picking up today. It opened the garage door outside and it sounded like someone was out there, so I made Star go out with me to lock it up. I just love her. She's getting so big!! I still need to give her a bath though. 

Monday, Dave came home early and gave me my present early. Reebok EZ tone shoes :) I love them!!

I went with Dad to see Clash of the Titans, and what a good show. I really enjoyed it. Then I got home just in time to feed Dave then out the door for the Paramore concert. It was actually pretty decent, and I had fun with everyone. Mom gave me some pretty blue shirts with a pretty necklace :).

Misty had gone to California over the weekend and brought me back some presents. :)

And today was all about me for me. My Sarah Foo shaded the other half of my arm and I went home to find Dave had gotten me the prettiest flowers and the most awesomest card. Then his parents brought me a windchime, its so beautiful. It was a fantastic weekend.     

These flowers are my favorite.

Time for Heather

So all my worrying finally got to everyone, especially me. Nervous breakdown here I come... Soooooo my boss and Dave decided to intervene.

I realized that all my worrying, and trying to be in control wasn't helping. I'm very much a person that likes to be in control. I'm very gung ho and want to keep things moving, taking it to the max, but my issue was that I was trying to do that with a situation that I have absolutely no control over. Very stressful especially since nothing was changing! So I decided to take a small step back and let Dave take control. By doing what I was doing I was stressing not only myself out, but Dave as well which only made matters worse.

Its very weird to not be in control, makes me nervous, but I realized that is why I have Dave! I'm supposed to let him take control so that he can take care of me. All he asks of me is to be happy. That way when he comes home stressed he can cuddle and relax with happy me and that makes him happy.

So that is what I am trying to do. I joined Shelfari.com, which got me motivated to read more. I went and bought some very helpful books, and a small journal to write out the helpful points and exercises for me.

This is the journal. Celtic on it. Very Pretty

I also went and got my hair done and got half of my tattoo shaded in. It's kind of funny, everyone keeps commenting on the color but they don't realize that the red is really just blood. I just irritated it to the max. The funny thing about getting the shading done was that part of it tickled like none other! Never had it tickle before.

Red Hair

One big point that I like is trying to start my day off peacefully. So I've slowly started these 10 min workouts every day before I shower. I figure I spend 10 min watching TV why not put it to use! So I'm going to continue doing that. I also bought me the toothpaste I want, and got Dave the kind he likes. I got some different things to get my face cleared up and my whole focus is to make me feel and look better.

Plus by getting up a little earlier I can go outside and play with Star and Butch. Even if its just picking up the yard, its very healthy to get at least 5 min of regualar sun. So I figure that's oh an extra 20 min early? Not to shabby all things considering.

Easter!!!!

I earned a whole new respect for my mom this Easter weekend. Wow. 4 kids and candy equals one big head ache. The kids had a lot of fun though. Grandma and Grandpa took care of the easter baskets this year. Then we had an egg hunt at our house. Crazy crazy crazy. Of course I don't think it helped that I was grumpy. Luckily no one seemed to notice.

Wonderings.....

So this weekend was full of emotions. I feel like I'm getting depressed and I want to cry. But I can't. I have to remain strong and remember that the universe will reward me for it. I know there is still a lot of hard work a head and my patience will be tried.

I don't understand why all this is happening when I have done nothing to deserve it, but its an answered question. He is worth it all and I choose this hardship to be with him. Just hurts that my life and things that I want have to be placed on hold. All I can pray for is that all I want will come to me eventually. Until then patience and understanding is all I can do. 

Guess I'll be praying a lot.

The first day of the rest of my life.

I am having the best day. I don't know why but I woke up just in a good mood. It could due to the fact I slept all day yesterday and actually got good sleep. Whatever the reason I just feel good, motivated, and in a loving mood.

Keyword:TIME MANAGEMENT. I need to learn and practice it. I spent the weekend working, as usual, except Saturday. Saturday I spent sleeping and with Dave. We had food and brownies and watched a movie and then today I got some seriously needed cuddle time. It seriously was needed badly and I loved it. Granted it wasn't very long but it was perfect. Made for an excellent start for the day. Yes, I didn't get to see any of my girls, but I needed the time with Dave and I know they understand.

So I decided that I need to figure out my calendar a bit better. Its why I bought one after all. So my plan for the time management is for my girls that I need to see (you know who you are) I can plan girls nights with. However, I will need to do them on weekends that we don't have the kids, or whatever we're planning will need to be after they go to bed. Or for my girls that I can do lunches with we can plan them in the mornings and I'll jsut wake up earlier. Then I'll also plan them around my time with Dave. We're going to take every minute we can get. So that may mean I'm waking up earlier or staying up a bit longer. 

As for me. I started today getting the tattoo that I have been waiting for months to get, and let me tell you it was all worth it. Sarah knew exactly what I was needing. Its a Goddess symbol where the moons on the side have been interwined into a Celtic knot. 

The woman herself, represents the Goddess, a strong, powerful woman. The Spiral inside of her means healing.

The moons, if you look closely are different. They represent the different sides of a situation.

Then on both sides, framing the rose they end in a heart. Meaning that no matter what way you choose the end should end in love, or good karma.

This is to always remind me that I need to keep positive and do what I think is right. No matter who or what the circumstance. We're going to make it look like stone. This is just the outline. Its going to look amazing when its done. I couldn't be happier with it. Sarah got it right on the money.

I always want to have good karma in my life. Life is to short to waste it on drama and negative things. I'd rather focus on life with Dave and the kids making every moment count. They are my life and the people I've been close with are so amazing and I am so blessed to have them around me.

I do want to improve on myself though. I'm getting my hair done really pretty and I need to continue to work out. I need to start studing my German. Its really important to me to learn it. It my family language and I want to teach my kids how to speak it. I need to start a schedule to keep it going. Dedicate time and effort to it.

I am looking forward to this next year though. As long as Dave and I continue to budget as we have been I should hopefully be able to return to school and get a law degree. Once I have that I am hoping to get on here at England so that I don't have to change jobs just different departments.

Life is just looking good to me today and I am so looking forward to the future.

SPRING!!!!!

Ah..... Spring. This was a wonderful weekend.

Christy had her birthday party at the bar Downunder. Miss Miss and Russ were there, and other than Justin, I really didn't know anyone there. Christy had fun and liked her present so that's what matters.

Sunday I went to lunch with Miss Miss and Russ and my Cera Foo. :0) We went to the Olive Garden. That was nice to sit down and relax. We planned that next Sunday to get my line work done on my tattoo so very exciting.

Also I'm going to be getting my hair done. Going red with blonde on top. Aunt Julie is going to get it for me. Hopefully we'll do it on April 10th. I'm looking forward to it. I nee a change. The nice thing is that if i end up not liking it red fades fast and we can get rid of it :). I think I'll enjoy it though.

Spent the afternoon in the back yard. Started with noticing that Butch has not left Star's foot alone in days so I had Dave check on it and he found this cut in the webbing between her toes and it smelled horrid. We think it might be infected. So we put neosporin on it and stuck her foot in a sock so that hopefully it'll heal quickly. I don't know what she cut it on, but I wanted to find out. So we went into the back yard and I found a ton of sharp things. A CD case, soda cans, batteries, pieces of metal, etc. We think that she's been playing in that pile of junk behind the garage and cut herself on something there. So I went crazy for a bit and picked up all the garbage I could find, then I grabbed the pooper scooper and went to town.

 It was oddly calming picking it all up. Once I was sure I got it all I graabbed a rake and picked up all the cut branches that the city left for us, how nice of them, and put them in the huge pile. Then I tok the rake to the yard and got as much of the dead leaves and debris into that pile. So now we're going to bag and dump the pile at the dump and then use the bigger wood pieces as firewood for BBQ's or camping. 

It was such a nice day. The kids got to get out and play in the sun, something they almost never get to do, and they had fun before going home. 

Spring is a time for new begininngs. I'm not really happy with all of the things that have been brought our way this year, but life will turn around. There is an unknown reason why these things are happening and I know that the lessons we learn will be needed later on in Life. May the God and Goddess help me keep my strength, give me patience, and keep my resolve from waivering. 

Like I told Dave, no matter how hard things are going to get I will never leave his side. I love him with all my heart and soul and he is the most amazing man I've ever met. Bless our home and keep it positive and calm. Help keep the stress out and keep our minds level so that we can do what we need to do to make it through this time.